I frequent his site a few times a week, (or whenver my rss feed says there\'s an update) and today was just such a day. His news however, was not at all something his readers will enjoy as now, since coming off of the chemo, his tumor has tripled in size and he thinks he has less than a year to live.
I find myself grieving and feel awful for doing so as he is still here, and he still gets to spend time with his wife and daughter. He\'s been making plans for quite some time now, I imagine, and from everything you read on his blog, he\'s accepted that his time may be short. I still hold out hope for a miracle, but that hope is so dwarfed by how badly I feel for him, his family and his close friends.
The reason I say all this is that I find it wierd how this is affecting me having not really ever known Cory or anyone in his family. We have/had a mutual friend in Sully but I don\'t know how close those two actually are/were. We\'ve traded geek emails a few times when talking about a specific brand of digital camcorder but that was as close as we\'ve ever gotten to any sort of friendship, and yet I literally feel a pain in my chest when I think about what may await him and his family in the future.
Even though its affecting me, I can\'t imagine how this is affecting those close to him. I stand here helpless and can do nothing but watch good people get hurt.
Anyway, I apologize for being such a buzz kill, but I\'d suggest a visit to his site. You\'ll see that he\'s affected alot of people, and now he can add me to that list of those who will miss him when he\'s gone. My heart truly goes out to his family and friends. My father died of cancer when I was 17 so I do know what its like to lose someone to this awful disease. I\'d like to say that the hurt goes away eventually, but I still have times where I feel the pain of losing my father and quite honestly, I don\'t think I am so anxious to lose that pain. It\'s hard to explain...I\'ve gone on long enough.
